Monday, June 22, 2009

I'm NOT singing..... NOPE

Kaleo is such a trip. I have spent a lot of time recently on the computer and driving around to find vacation bible schools in our area for our kids to attend. I know that Kaleo is used to the school atmosphere, and while he's at home, he has to deal with 3 younger children. He's used to being with a classroom full of 5 year olds, while I take care of a 3, 2, & 1 year old each day. Therefore, it was my desire to fill his summer with simple activities. I didn't want to overwhelm him with a bunch of lessons and all. I know he wants to have fun! Sometimes parents enrolls their kids in too many things and the kids are so exhausted that they can't really even enjoy the activities.

So I thought.... vacation bible school is simple and it typically lasts for 2 or 3 hours a day or night at the most. There are tons of kids his age, and they do a load of fun activities with them. To top it off, it's either low-cost ($5 or less) or free entirely. I am down with that!

So tonight was the first night of Vacation Bible School at the church that we attend. It's also the first for the season. He did not want to go. He insisted that they would "make him sing". I had no idea what he was talking about. He just did not want to sing. He said it multiple times, and was getting really upset. I explained that he didn't have to sing unless he wanted to and that no one would make him. I told him he'd get to make things, play games, and a bunch of other stuff. He was still a little doubtful about the whole situation.

I was 5 minutes late picking him up and he had his bag full of crafts and a big smile on his face with a report that he got to be simon when they played "simon says". His teacher said he was so well behaved and there was one individual who was shy & he sat with her and helped her get comfortable with the group. He has that kind of spirit about him, and I just love that he is sensitive to other people's needs. He's only 5 and reaching out to others around him that he sees are having a difficult time adapting to whatever the surrounding situation may be.

When we got to the car he told me he wants to come to bible school every day. Too bad it's only a week long!


The busyness has not subsided yet. However, there has been a massive amount of exciting news to go along with just being "busy". For instance, this week on Wednesday evening, I drove myself to the hospital with a awful stomach ache. I was in an extreme amount of pain. At 1am, I realized that this pain was just not normal (not that stomach pain is in the normal catagory, but I have acid reflux so stomach pain is a common feat for me). So basically, I was in the hospital. They gave me all kinds of good stuff... narcotics... yippy! I was good & loopy when they did the ultrasounds on my gallbladder. Yes they did two ultrasounds. The first was a doctor in training and the second was his supervisor, who rolled the portable ultrasound machine in just a few minutes after the first doctor left. I suppose the first doc did not get the images the supervisor had hoped for.

Soon after, the doc in training came back into the room, again with the portable ultrasound machine. By this time, I'd had plenty of morphine and I remember thinking how inappropriate I sounded when I asked the doctor, "OH so you're gonna do it to me again huh?" OH BOY very embarrassing. The doctor smiled and just said, "well this time we're not looking at your gall bladder. We are looking for a baby. I said, "WHAT???" and he said, "yes you are pregnant..."

They told me that I could go home & I was convinced, after falling out of the hospital bed and then dressing myself, that I could drive myself home. After all, I'd driven myself to the hospital even though I was in such pain. They said absolutely not & that my husband had to come & get me. While I was waiting for Davin to come get me at 5:30am, I realized that not a soul was watching me. I walked out to the parking lot & got into the car & called Davin and told him that I felt completely fine & that I'd just drive myself home. After all, no need for him to get the kids out of bed and all this early! He said that he was almost to the hospital. I told him it was fine & he should just turn around & go home. He refused and told me I better not drive the car anywhere.

Looking back, I'm certainly thankful for his common sense. I just remember that I kept saying, I feel fine, I'm good, I can drive.

So that's my story! Very exciting!

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

So Busy!

How is it that we are so busy? It's like the hussle bustle consumes us. But what are we gaining from this? I'm unsure exactly. We have been so busy but it's difficult to say that we have actually accomplished anything. I still have not acquired work with my newly earned degree, although I feel that my daily search takes up much of my time.

I remember being young and in love. In my cleaning out the last closet this past week, I found a letter that Davin wrote to me back in 2003. It reminded me of the way we used our time back then. We had no clear concept of time. Reality was not for us. Fairy tale fantasies were, though. Davin writes, "No matter how bad of a day I have, just as long as I know you're waiting for me at home will make all of my problems go away". Mind you, this was a year into our dating relationship.

My own children have difficulty in grasping the time concept. I was 18 years old and hadn't grasped it, so how do I expect a 5 & a 2 year old to have the ability to handle it? Well.... I'm not sure. Off to the job search!

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

The Job Hunt

I have begun the strenuous job hunting task, and have had no luck thus far. To date, I have applied for online college professor positions so that although I need to be able to hold a job and eventually replace Davin's income for his exit from the Navy into full time college, I am not having much luck just yet. Basically, my goal has been to go through the list of U.S. universities and apply at one each day. I have been getting call-backs with suggestions for various other job possibilities from recruiting agents, as many of the universities are out of funding and have capped off enrollment.

Altogether though, this is a very frustrating process. I have about 2 years to replace Davin's income, so I'm not going to get discouraged just yet. It's only been 3 weeks so I know there's still hope. I'm going to fight for it! :) I don't want to have to leave my babies. To sum it up.... I want to have my cake & eat it too! I always have had it good & I don't want any of that to change, but I also want to provide Davin with the chance that he provided me.... the fact that he worked his butt off & re-enlisted in the Navy so that I would be able to finish my degree blows my mind. Every single day. Such an unselfish man.... the government owns him for 3 more years all because he knew how badly I wanted to have that education. His chance to do the same is coming soon! He works so hard!!

I'll keep you all posted!